so as most know my boyfriend isnt moving after all and that excites me so much!!!
we have been dating for almost 10 months <3

i joined the swim team, and i am exhaused. it takes alot of energy, but it is good exercise.

life has been so busy lately. christmas is coming and i am stresssed, there is so much going on. my mother recently had a brain tumor removed and she didnt quite come back to her normal self. the tumor was in the judgement and reasoning part of her brain and so now things are harder. it takes longer for her to get things and that can be stressful. christmas is a good time of the year but it is getting to close. im not even done with the quilt i am making and i have like 17 days left to get it done and i have like no time to do it because i have practive every day after school till like 5:00 and then i come home eat, do homework, and go to bed because i get up at 5am. on weekends i have practice on saturday morning and then i come home and work on the farm for the family and then when sunday rolls around every one is to tired to do anything because of the busy week we all just had

so no that that is off my chest, things have been good to, two of my bestest buddies got boyfriends. and that is so good. one still hasnt but i have faith she will soon enough.



so i think i need to take a step back in life and slow down


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so today i found out that boyfriend might be moving away from here.like 4 1/2 hours away and i dont think that i can handle that. i wouldnt get to see him very much and then i dont know. i get worried because we dont know yet and if he does move will he find someone new? im stressing out so bad right now and all i can do is cry. i try not to let him see it because i dont want to worry him or upset him. that would make it worse, and i dont want that.





i hate life sometimes and sometimes like this all i can do about it is cry

ok so this up-coming weekend is the jamboree and i am so excited! i hope its still on because my boyfriend might go to washington to work and if he does then he misses the jamboree and our 6 months so as mean as it sounds i hope he doesnt go.
he has an interview for a job today.....its at KFC but at least its a job...
wow its almost kinda been 6 months...that is a lonnng time to me but thats ok because i love this kid to death and im quite happy where i am.
im hoping that sometime soon the girls and i will make a trip up to portland to go shopping and hang out again because that was so much fun the last time we went and did that

so...this summer is kinda boring. i dunno...it just dont feel like summer.
well my bf is in alaska for 1 1/2 weeks, and i know that may not seem like a long time but to me it sounds like FOREVER.o man.
well at least i still have my friends
loves

so its summer. wow. finally. im still with my bf...my longest ever..its only been 4months. im happy where i am.